i wish i could

as im taking pictures last night with one of my bestfriends, my thoughts were as follows:
this little device captures instants and keeps them in a place where time is not allowed. as i aim and fire each press of the button snatches a piece of the present and eliminates time's every fiber. if i could only revisit those paused moments and maybe even press play. time, time is no friend of mine. he's ruthless and ostentatious in the way that he reminds us of how he waits for none. even when we cherish him, he still moves just as quickly and just wont sit still.
throughout the night we took some good photos and had even gooder laughes; but im already at home, the next day, on the computer in what seems like the blink of an eye. "time flys" is a poor personification. time evaporates, melts, teleports, disappears?
i guess the point im making is mute since we dont possess any control.
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on a brighter,
corinne bailey rae is killing me softly with these songs i found via limewire. i know, support the artist. im sorry corinne. itunes is slackin on the mackin and they dont have the good stuph. oh and i recently fell in love with floetry. ive always liked them but starting like 2 weeks ago they've been massaging my ears like 25/8.
check them out.

last words: in reference to this whole, time moves fast subj... i cant think of anything un-cliche. and i hate those. just enjoy your friends and the times you have.
im off like a dirty shirt.

Dreaming of Love Perfected

The synchontricity of two souls
submerged in a sea of love
harboring hope
and supported by fate
all overwhelmed by a globe of life;
in the thought of this
i see you, while you see me
and simultaneous thoughts speed
and never halt nor break;
i hope one day
the words "you" and "me"
can simply transform to
"us" and "we"-
this process by which most of many have failed-
im happy to report the understanding of intimacy
meaning more than life in bed;
you and i have much to learn
but to learn them together
there is no greater beauty.

last words: sometimes a song or movie will just take you to a daydream where you imagine finishing that race of independence and you find the love of your life. and then you keep falling back into that dream througout your day. enjoy and explore those, sometimes they can stimulate creativity and you can find out things about yourself you never could otherwise.

"not goodbye, i hate 'goodbyes'...see you later" - John Q.

musicianship? please.

Okay. i was watching "the n" this evening, fresh prince was on. and i saw a commercial. it was like one of those where they find a famous person to promote their channel. like, "hi, im so n so, and youre watching the n". and guess who i saw? lil mamma. now i really dont like the radio so ive heard one of her songs. that annoying lip gloss song. so anyways she goes "hi im lil mamma aka 'the voice of the young people' and youre watching the n". i almost turned off the tv. who gave you my voice?! first offfffff: dont ever self proclaim yourself. thats terrible. 2nd: you arent even a music artist. anyone can say: my lip gloss is poppin. this is why im so anti-radio. i mean dont get me wrong..MOST artists i respect simply because ive taken stabs at music and its harder than imagined...BUT alot of the stuff i hear now is pretty bogus. i mean...soulja boy? c'mon. I COULD DO THAT! music is, john legend, brian mcknight, death cab, alicia keys, the beetles, stevie wonder, common, mos, talib, erykah b., corinne bailey rae, de la soul, drake, lauryn hill, lupe, joss stone, nas, maxwell, keane, musiq, tribe, robin thicke, BEETHOVEN and GARTH BROOKS! i would just like a decent, im not even asking for a good one, a decent representation of musicianship. it takes no talent to "crank dat". am i wrong?
im just saying. wake up. can the music have a message? not "ay bay bay". i mean im not a big new school rap fan..but can we get some talent on the air waves? it kinda frustrates me. maybe i shouldnt state my opinion so boldly..but thats why this is my blog.

last words: the fact that i have a new york hat doesnt make me a yankee. just because you can get ahold of a mic doesnt make you an mc. support the artist not the idea of one.

peace with 2 fingers.

where's my "not quite"?

my first blog entry! i hate long "hello"s and "i like"s..and this isnt an essay writing class so lets skip the intro and get to the food for thought..enjoy (like coke..haha)

so lets start!
today...it buggs me to see happy couples. i hate it 'cus im without and they're obviously "with". im ready for a partner in crime. not just a friend 'cus i have plenty of those, most of them have penises ("..es"?) and some without. im not sold on a prototypical girlfriend either..why? im not sure.
what i want is a "not quite" girlfriend. you know that buddy that you hate to see texting someone else. or the kind that you go out to eat with and its understood that "dutch" is the language we speak (youre smirking if you caught that). the kind that you go to the movies with and u guys do that playful half cuddle thing. the kind that wears sweatshirts around you to the drive-in and you do the same. the kind that u have long conversations with about the qualities of the perfect companion and you imply traits of your "not quite" without giving it away that he or she would be great! sophmoric? ..duh! but isnt love a game for immature fools? everyone is always speaking this empty rehtoric about maturity in relationships..thats for the birds. in all honesty we want a little jealosy from our bf/gf, maybe some love notes there and here. maturity only gives you things to be immature about anyways. i wouldnt mind screaming lyrics to our favorite little-known music artist in the car on our way to a coffee shop where we always get the same respective drinks everytime we go. am i asking too much? even though we dont do what lovers do we can still feel but not acknowledge that specific 143 between us (musiq; get a clue). and look at it this way...breaking up usually isnt an option with bestfriends. i mean how many of my (and your) relationships ended in a break up? ALL duh. and unless you marry the one youre with now...the afore mentioned is inevitable, whether its a "good" or "bad" break up is irrelevant.
this is enough for a first entry i guess.

last words: love is like a butterfly..when you chase it with open arms it will do all it can to avoid you. but once you sit, relax, and focus on something else..it gets closer and closer. corny? ha write your own blog then!

Bless.